Jan. 19th, 2014

Pity party

Jan. 19th, 2014 02:58 pm
I've been pretty down lately and I don't know it's it's a particularly bad case of the winter blues or what.

I hate having no nearby close friends to do stupid/fun stuff with. The baby panda is on display, but I've got no one to go with me. I'll probably miss out just because I'm stupid and lonely. It'll be like that exhibit at the botanic garden I wanted to see over the holidays. Never went to that either. Or zoolights. Or even the local holiday lights show thing.

I don't even bother asking non-nearby/non-close friends to do stuff anymore because I can't handle the potential for rejection. So I just sit in my office feeling bad for myself.

It's cold out anyway, so maybe it's for the best if I just stay home.

My birthday is in about 2 weeks and it's reminding me of what a huge failure I've been the last year or so. No job, schooling isn't particularly challenging... What am I doing with my life? I feel pretty useless

And I don't understand what I'm doing wrong in terms of internships. I keep getting rejected. Why doesn't anyone like me?

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