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Yesterday kept getting progressively worse. Sometimes it would start to improve, only to hit me harder a second later.

I got home after work and decided to try to calm myself down by doing mindless household chores. So I put away all the dry dishes on the drying rack and washed as many dishes as I could until the rack was full again. I was feeling a little better until I got in my room and learned that I never heard ben knock on the door. He was locked out! :( I felt so bad about that. I nearly started crying.

Ben was doing computer game stuff and I didn't want to be a pest, so I went to the kitchen to make more strawberry dumplings. All was good until I BURNED the dumplings. So disgustingly burnt. I don't know what I did wrong, but they were ruined. And I wasted an entire pint of strawberries.

So, I finally broke down and started crying. I felt stupid and worthless and incapable of doing anything right.

Ben gave me a hug and brought me fresh strawberries and got me to calm down. Then he made the wonderful suggestion that we get out of the apartment and go out to eat. We had Vietnamese food. And bubble tea. Bubble tea makes me happy.

I was feeling full and good and less sad on the walk home. Then, nearly at the apartment again, I got hit with a cramp o doom. (Forgive the tmi.) I hurt so badly I had to sit down. I could not walk, and I thought I might throw up if I moved. Ben is so wonderful though, and waited until I was feeling better. We eventually made it home, where I took vast amounts of motrin and passed out.

I'm feeling better this morning. And somewhat productive. I worked on my independent study a bit. Like, real work. Not just watching anime. I found some more academic sources for my paper, and typed up a pretty good outline. After work, I plan on depositing my checks and mailing a package I want to send out. Then I'm going to spend the rest of the evening looking for jobs and applying to them.Hopefully.

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GAH! I nearly stuck the electronic end of the headphones in my ear! That would have hurt so much!!!!

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I just saw a commercial for a toy line called "Furryville". It's a bunch of animal families. Furry families, the commercial called them.

I just sorta felt like that needed to be shared.

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Oh! I forgot to mention!!!

Last night when ben and I were walking to the restaurant, we saw the CUTEST little puppy!!! The entire thing fit in my hand!!! And it was running around and exploring in that cute little run that puppies have where it looks like they use every scrap of energy they have in each leap!

At one point, the puppy ran up to me. Highlight of the day. (Which is why I can't believe I forgot to mention it.) It was jumping all over my hands and wagging its little puppy tale and chewing on my fingers and being SO CUTE. It had such soft fur too! I wanted to take it home with me! There is nothing cuter than an exploring puppy! :)

And on the weirdness level of the evening, tied up in front of a restaurant near the one ben and I were going to were two horses. They were just hanging out, eating grass, being horses. I guess their riders were in one of the restaurants eating dinner. I was a little concerned though because the horses were tied up on the streetcar tracks. Sure, they had enough loose line to move out of the way, but I'm sure it would be a weird experience for both the horse and the people on the streetcar.

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