holytoastr | (no subject)

I went to bed last night fully convinced that I was an awful person and that no one like me. My dreams reflected that. Every single dream was about how everyone hated me. They did awful things to me to get back at me for being me. I woke up crying so many times. When ben came home I went back to bed with him because obviously I hadn't gotten enough sleep. Had more nightmares and kept waking up crying, but at least ben was there to hold me. In his sleepiness though, he didn't make me feel much better.

I planned on going to find a fabric store today because I couldn't find my off-white thread. But I found it. I don't have much of it left, so only the outside of the shirt will use that thread. I'm using white on the inside. I still don't think I will have enough though. *sigh* At least I won't have to go to the store today. I'm not in the mood for shopping.

Oh, but I did some laundry today. The stuff in the dryer is taking forever because I blew a fuse and never realized it. The dryer never got hot. It's fixed now, but it means that laundry is going to take all day.

I want ben to wake up...