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[holytoastr]

Last night I was all crazy and moody and wanted to buy a cell phone. Poor ben. I don't know how he puts up with me.

I was crying because I wanted a cute phone. And because ben couldn't get the phone he wanted. And I didn't want to give my ss# over the internet. And I didn't understand all the plans. And amazon.com had cheaper phones but the plans were evil. And another place had free phones but I didn't trust them. And I still feel bad about ben not getting the phone he wanted. :(

Afterwards I ate and ben hugged me and I was feeling better. But then ben asked a question about my mom and marriage and I went all sad again and I couldn't stop crying. Ben had to backtrack a whole bunch to get me to calm down.

At that point it was midnight and I still hadn't walked my dog. I did that and came back to ben playing warcraft. I tried to be good but started crying all over again. I was convinced he hated me and loved the game more and I was completely crazy.

I hate being moody. No matter how hard I try, I can never stop crying.

I had nightmares last night about being so ugly no one wanted to be near me. And then I woke up with more spider bites. I need to change the sheets and shake out the blankets because right now my foot is getting so swollen I might not be able to move it.

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[madamminx.livejournal.com]

buy a VCR so I can come over and we can have a Sailor Moon athon, and watch tell spiders crawl around in our heads. =] I could bring some snack food and we could make a night out it. ^_^ And make steph come over and convert her. email what you think, sailormoony@gmail.com