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[holytoastr]

Ben suggested a few nights ago that I write down all the events in college that made me feel broken inside. It took me two nights, but I managed to write down all the things that happened that made me fall into a useless puddle of depression.

Ben read it last night. I wonder what he thinks of me now. He told me that I was very sad. I'm pretty sure he knew that already. At least now he knows why.

I don't know what to do with what I wrote. Keep it? Burn it? Tear it apart? I guess it really doesn't matter what I do. The events still happened and still live in my head.

Forcing myself to remember so much stuff made me sorta down last night. And I'm still feeling it today.

Comments

[madamminx.livejournal.com]

I know your not pagan or really spirtual in anyway but I find this little thing works well with releasing the past. I write down whats bothers me (like what you did) then I go out side burn it, and throw the ashes in the air. And imagine all that problems that were part of the past are gone now. And no longer a part of me. Its not going to effect me anymore. The symboligy helps the healing. Visualizing it dissolve like the paper in the flames. All gone, and your new and clean. ^_^ You should try it.

[tibbaretihw.livejournal.com]

yes you will always have terrible memories of what hurt you but sometimes it can be kinda clensing to do something ritualistic like burn the list and maybe if you have anything else that is a reminder of those things make it an event cause sometimes do an act that is like physically removing the bad stuff can make it eaiser to move on and deal with with

[glazomaniac.livejournal.com]

they key is to refuse to let those events "live" in your head. they'll always exist, but ya don't gotta let them get ya down. kill 'em.

[taraisagoddess.livejournal.com]

If you want, I'll kill the people who helped make the list possible.

Remember-ruthless, trained killers are just a phone call away. :)

[danithesquirrel.livejournal.com]

Melissa, I'm not sure what you should do with the list. But I think the important thing is that all these things on it are over and out of your life now. Think about how much better things are.