Were I so bold as to wear a mask...

[holytoastr]

Ben took me out to see V for Vendetta tonight. I've never read the book, though it sits on my bookshelf. (A fantastic find at a library book sale.)

It was a good movie, enough so that I left the theater feeling ashamed of myself. I don't know how to verbalize it, though I tried on the way home. A man hiding behind a mask made a greater difference than I will ever make. Because I am afraid. I write letters and read the news and talk big, but when it comes down to it I'm afraid to do more because I have too much to lose. But I guess that's the point. V was more idea than man. And ideas have nothing to lose and no fear.

This movie was the superhero story I've always wanted but didn't know someone already wrote. But it reminds me of my cowardice. I want to stand up and fight, but I want someone to lead. Someone to take the fall when bad things happen. I want change, but I don't want risk. And without risk, there can be no change.

I'm pretty sure I'm not making sense right now. I'm really tired. So yeah, go see V for Vendetta. It is a good movie. I suppose it's a good book too. Perhaps I'll read it if I ever get over my shame. I have a lot to think about now.

Comments

[danithesquirrel.livejournal.com]

Read the book!!! It's really quick and is even better than the movie. I liked the movie though.

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid to read the book because I'll feel even more ashamed of myself.

[danithesquirrel.livejournal.com]

I think that's a silly reason not to read the book. I know it feels like V did all these wonderful things. But it is fiction. His ideals are wonderful, but impractical. Do you really want to have absolutely no fear? You would no longer care about Ben or Noname or yourself, you'd care only about the cause.

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

I know it's fiction. :P

But it had a very good point. It's near impossible to achieve the really big stuff unless you are not afraid to lose what's important to you.

I know I'll never be capable of that. I love ben too much to ever risk losing him. So I guess I'm stuck in mediocrity.

[danithesquirrel.livejournal.com]

You are far from mediocre. You do a lot. It's very admireable.

[scortia.livejournal.com]

I get what you're saying. Just remember he didn't have anything to lose,.. and,.. well... the experiments on him made him a bit eccentric afterall which made his actions even easier to go through. Why don't I find cool comics at book sales!?

btw, didya get the cds I sent you?

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

Yes! I forgot to thank you!

I watched gokusen and am now trying to download the other eps! :P

[scortia.livejournal.com]

Heheh you'll be sucked in big time. ^_~ When I first saw Kumiko with the pigtails and glasses my first thought was "OMFG it's Japanese-Melissa!" >P

I own pigtails! :D

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

It's funny, I almost never have the time to wear pigtails, but that's the hairstyle that most reminds people of me.

Ben has mentioned that pigtails fit me very well. Maybe that is why.

I should make a point to wear them more often.

I wish I could kick butt as well as kumiko though. I would be mighty!