holytoastr | (no subject)

I've had this bizarre but mild fascination with fudgie the whale for the longest time. For the wedding, I was going to buy ben a whale cake that said he was "one whale of a husband!"

Then at the worst shower ever (I left crying), my mom bought a fudgie the whale cake for me. I don't even know what she wrote on it. I was already crying and then I saw the cake that I wanted to get especially for ben and I stormed off in tears. (Yes, it was a dumb thing to throw me over the edge, but really you had to have been at that party. It was horrible.)

I've decided I need to plan Operation: Take Back Fudgie. Cause I still have a mild bizarre fascination. But every time I think of that cake, I get a tight sad feeling in my chest as I remember that horrible party. I need to plan something that involves this cake that will be so happy, it will erase the bad feelings that I previously have connected with the cake.

I did that with my birthday, so I know it can work. (I no longer cry on my birthday!) It will just require persistence. Maybe I can have the cake for a birthday party and totally mess up my insane brain.