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Went to anime club. Watch a show called Peach Girl that upset me and made me sad. Then sat around hoping to be social but failed miserably. Couldn't deal with the conversations at all. The intellectual level was....painful. Granted, some of them were still in high school. But there were significantly older people there as well, who could have had a real substantial conversation.

I got so fed up that I left early. Got lost. Cried all the way home. Cried at home. Am still crying.

I'm just really unhappy here. I seem to be looking in all the wrong places to meet people. It's cold. Drivers are stupid. So many people are mean. This is not a happy place. :(

At least I have ben. I can avoid everything else as long as he's here. And I'll work hard until I have enough experience to get a really good job far far away from here. Then ben and I will go live there together and be happy.