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I dreamed that Something Really Bad happened to ben. And tonight is his midnight shift, so he wasn't in bed to reassure me it was just a dream. I was crying and sweating, even felt a little nauseous. I made ben come home from work.

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Despite all my stretching before class, I am incredibly sore today. I want to take a hot bath, but the tub is filthy. I'll have to just endure the pain and shift around like an old lady.

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Talking to my mom about wedding stuff always makes HER angry.

First of all, she's annoyed that I don't want to get married in a church. She's never going to win that argument though. She also thinks it's inappropriate to get married in the same place you are going to eat and dance. She was not able to explain why.

Then she wanted to know when I was going to find time to take pictures if I was having the wedding all in one place. (Not sure how this is a problem in her mind, but okay...) I told her I would do them before the ceremony. She flipped out a bit because the groom isn't supposed to see the bride before the ceremony.

I calmly explained that I'm not superstitious and that before the ceremony is the perfect time to take pictures. My make up will be fresh, my hair will still look neat, and my dress won't have any wrinkles. Once I start moving around, I'm going to look like a mess, so it would be smart to take the pictures as early as possible.

At some point we were talking about food and she got upset cause I mentioned I wanted a buffet. It's less expensive and allows people to eat as much or little as they like of only the things they like. Mom says it will make me look cheap. (Well, I am cheap, but if my guests didn't know that already then they don't know me well at all.) I told her that anyone who would feel that way doesn't need to be invited. She told me SHE'D think I was cheap. I told her she could skip the wedding and go to a nice restaurant instead, since she was saving so much money by not paying for this wedding.

Seriously, if someone thinks less of me for not going broke at my wedding, I don't want them there. The only people I want at my wedding are the people who actually want to see ben and I get married. If they are just there for the food, I don't want them bringing down the happy mood.

I don't know what her problem is. I'm paying for the wedding so anything that might "embarrass her" can be blamed on me.