Moment of frustration alert

[holytoastr]

I've had it. I want to go back to school right now. I'm tired of dealing with this stupid family and their stupid problems. I want to be carefree and selfish and happy.

I just don't understand WHY my dad can't keep a better check on his sugar levels. It happens EVERY night! WHY doesn't he DO something about it!?

Today was just the last of it. I'm getting to the point where I just really don't want to care anymore. In my extreme frustration and anger, I let him out of the house...Let him go driving. It's a good thing he didn't hit anyone, from how I heard he was driving. And he had gone out to buy dinner, returning with a partially right, mostly wrong box of chinese food. My brother had gone with him, but even he couldn't keep him in check.

I know I haven't completely given up, because I feel guilty about not stopping him. But....I just don't want to care anymore. I want to ignore problems like that in my life. Can't I? I hate being so selfish.... But I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up without breaking.

Comments

[lotuseyes.livejournal.com]

I sorta feel the same way. I am the 'complaint' bureau for my siblings' teachers, friends and friends' parents. Never mind the fact we have three fully able bodied adults that are considered to be our parents, if matt or tegan does something wrong skip the parental units and head to the older sister.

i'm sick of being that person that has to deal with her little sister fighting in school or her brother's rowdy friends. I don't LIKE being the one that the school officials and nurses and teachers blame when my sister doesn't do her homework or has to be sent home because she's sick--again. I don't even live with her any more and I'm still the one they call and lecture. "Miss Cenni don't you see that by your not being there for your little sister she has it set in her mind that its okay to not do her homework or to push that student around?" well okay...what about my mom? the one she lives with?

not to mention my brother, who though they dont' call me about this school problems, I do have to handle all the parents, neighbors and [god help me] police officers that can around to talk to me about my brother's behavoir.

that said...I right there with you--I miss the days when I could be selfish and just laugh about my siblings' troubles. >< I unfortunately don't get to go away to college...it just gets worse for me during the school year.