holytoastr | (no subject)

I spent much of the day in a foul mood. I thought that if I got some sleep, I'd calm down but that was not the case. I was jsut as angry as before. Angrier, perhaps.

However, I like to think I am a mature individual, so before I left for production, I left a message offering to talk things out. My offer was not accepted.

Production was a waste of time. I spent the first hour replacing everything in views, and then I sat around for 4 hours while the editors all went over it. Finally I sighed at them enough to get the hint and got to go home.

But during the 5 hours I had time to work out what had really bothered me last night. It was that my trust was betrayed. I eman, how can I be expected to get better, when the other party can't be trusted to do their part? Is that unreasonable? And not only that, but they are taking advantage of the trust of others. I find that incredibly immature.

So anyway, after production I played ddr for 2 hours. That was fun, even though I hadn't practiced in a long time. And for a little while, I didn't feel so alone.

I have work at 1 so I should probably take a nap.