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Jun. 20th, 2006 09:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
holytoastrLast night was a big ball me of getting stressed out. Ben hadn't started cleaning the kitchen like I asked. I guess there was some miscommunication. He thought he could start after I got home. My plan was to come home to a half clean kithen and then swoop in the finish the rest.
So that made me a bit cranky. I took it out on ben by making him go with me to the grocery store. We needed a few ingredients for dinner. We made some fancy broccoli stuff. I didn't like it too much. Too much ginger I think.
After dinner I started crying from the stress and feeling of failure. Ben was annoyed with me, I think, because he left me on the couch alone for probably a whole 5 minutes. Then he came back and talked me out of being sad.
We finished the kitchen once I was able to stop crying. It's not perfect, but it's clean enough. There are no more dirty dishes everywhere or stains on the counters.
I was really tired after all that work and fell asleep pretty fast. But I had a nightmare that I was lost in a house and there was a man trying to kill me. He had a gun and I was really scared that I'd never get to see ben ever again. I woke up crying. Then I had a dream where ben and I were spending time with rockethouse. I kept needing to get things from my room, which happened to be in upstate ny. It took me a whole day to make the trip because I was walking, so I missed all the fun everyone was having.
My dog was bad this morning, even on the leash. I'll leave that at that.
So that made me a bit cranky. I took it out on ben by making him go with me to the grocery store. We needed a few ingredients for dinner. We made some fancy broccoli stuff. I didn't like it too much. Too much ginger I think.
After dinner I started crying from the stress and feeling of failure. Ben was annoyed with me, I think, because he left me on the couch alone for probably a whole 5 minutes. Then he came back and talked me out of being sad.
We finished the kitchen once I was able to stop crying. It's not perfect, but it's clean enough. There are no more dirty dishes everywhere or stains on the counters.
I was really tired after all that work and fell asleep pretty fast. But I had a nightmare that I was lost in a house and there was a man trying to kill me. He had a gun and I was really scared that I'd never get to see ben ever again. I woke up crying. Then I had a dream where ben and I were spending time with rockethouse. I kept needing to get things from my room, which happened to be in upstate ny. It took me a whole day to make the trip because I was walking, so I missed all the fun everyone was having.
My dog was bad this morning, even on the leash. I'll leave that at that.
