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Nov. 28th, 2006 09:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
holytoastrAfter a stupid day like yesterday, it's no surprise I ended up in the bedroom crying. It doesn't take much to make me cry anyway. I felt useless, unattractive, and ignored...on top of the general frustration with the day and my life.
Ben came in and tried to find out what was wrong, but he was using his frustrated voice. :( It took forever for him to get anything out of me. I hate that voice.
We never really resolved anything. Ben was just able to calm me down. I still feel useless and unwanted.
I wish I wasn't so crazy. Then I could be happy all the time.
That night, I had nightmares about ben leaving me. I tossed and turned all night, kicking off my blankets, so I was cold and couldn't sleep. I don't feel so well today. I wish I hadn't wasted all my sick days on actually being sick. I could have used one today. :(
Ben came in and tried to find out what was wrong, but he was using his frustrated voice. :( It took forever for him to get anything out of me. I hate that voice.
We never really resolved anything. Ben was just able to calm me down. I still feel useless and unwanted.
I wish I wasn't so crazy. Then I could be happy all the time.
That night, I had nightmares about ben leaving me. I tossed and turned all night, kicking off my blankets, so I was cold and couldn't sleep. I don't feel so well today. I wish I hadn't wasted all my sick days on actually being sick. I could have used one today. :(
