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- Last night I spent an hour digging through old photos looking for baby pictures of noname. I was disappointed by how few there were. She's very cute in the ones I found though. She was so tiny! And her ears were all floppy.

- I had a nightmare last night that followed me through every dream. Some sort of monster with deadly tentacles was trying to break out of the other dimension it had been imprisoned in to kill everyone in this dimension. Every time the dream got too scary, I would "wake up" into another dream. In that dream people would start hinting at the monster and I'd be like, "Oh no! Just like in my dream!" It went on like that all night. It was terrible.

- When I woke up, I had no clue where I was.

- There is a dog standing by my feet, begging for food and farting. I haven't had any food for about half an hour, when I finished the last bite of my waffle. Petting her only makes her drool because she thinks my hand is bringing down food.

- I miss ben.

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Today was a mixture of good and bad.

First we went to the reception hall to brainstorm decorating ideas with our decorator. She gave me another lecture on why I HAVE to use a dj. I told her that was the one things that I was not budging on. I really hate djs. My mom then told her not to worry cause they were going to hire one.

How dare they! I told her right then that if I find a dj in that room on the day of my wedding, the dj is going to leave or I''m calling the cops.

Then we had another fight about flowers. I told her I didn't want flowers because the last time I was flowers was at grandpa's funeral and they make me SAD. She says she is wearing them anyway. My mother it a witch with a capital B.

Aside from the stupid fights that went on the ENTIRE TIME, I got a lot done. We're thinking make the entryway like a space port. Seating cards could then be like tickets on a rocketship. And then each table can have a planet centerpiece.

I suggested black tablecloths with star confetti. Then my mom suggested buying star fabric to make tablecloths. Then we had another fight on budgets and spending money on totally unnecessary things.

After that, we went to my top choice photographer. They were pretty much as perfect as they were on the phone. Insanely perfect. Everything I want. In the style I want. And none of the stuff I don't want.

The whole time we were looking at albums, I kept saying to my mom, "This is really nice. What do you think of this?" And she would reply, "What do you care? My opinions don't matter." She was acting like a big stupid child.

This photographer lets you choose different pictures for each album, so I wanted her to tell me what pictures she wanted in HER album. If she's going to be a brat about it, she's not going to have any pictures she likes. And it won't be my fault, cause I tried to ask!

But yeah, so far I really love this photographer. And they are even in my price range.

Now I am tired and cranky. I am going to cancel my appointment with one of the photographers. I didn't want to talk with them to begin with, but felt I should just to have a lot of options. I will use that time instead to get the other stuff done that I need to do, like invitations and buying fabric for my veil.

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Goodnight, world! I'm off to pretend you don't exist for a couple of hours!