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[holytoastr]

Two things: Yesterday and My Insane Family

Yesterday I spent much of the day crying and watching cartoons. I also ate a jar of olives. When ben got home, we walked to the library for a bit. I didn't want to go, but ben said he needed to get me out of the house. Read Books of Magic which I had forgotten I had read before until I actually started reading it. Went home and cried after that. Ben did his best to cheer me up, and then he made lemonade for me. So I made dinner for him. After dinner, I fell asleep on the couch until ben woke me to take me to bed.

And now my crazy family. I feel I am justified when I say that my family does not have their priorities straight. Compared to the rest of my cousins, I am an angel. I've never become pregnant and I never dropped out of school. Never been arrested. Never done drugs. Drink rarely. Don't smoke. I've graduated college and found a job that allows me to be financially independent. Despite all of that, I am the evil one that shall never be trusted.

Mom sent me an email today. One of my cousins (born hours before me and so I hated her for that) is having a baby. The father is just a friend of hers, they weren't dating or anything. She's moving back in with her mother. Her mother has decided that that's too many kids in the house. So she has asked one of my other aunts to take her son. Full custody and everything. And I sit here boggled that a mother would just give away her child like that.

I look at this situation, and then I look at my own life, and I can't help but wonder why everyone is so fine with them but not me. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. What have I done that is so evil, it out weighs anything in that situation?

Comments

[taraisagoddess.livejournal.com]

Were they green or black olives?

Probably green, if they were in a jar. I LOVE olives.




... And yeah, your family is nuts.

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

They were the fancy greek olives you get at the deli. They also sell them in jars, I have discovered (with intense delight).

[taraisagoddess.livejournal.com]

*drool*

Olives are my favorite. I had an OLIVE SALAD once, from a deli near me. They have since closed. x.x

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

You'd love a muffaletta then. It's an olive salad sandwich. The regular kind has some meat on it, but vegetarian is just olives and cheese. So incredibly tasty.

Should have come to new orleans while I was there! We could have gotten some!

[taraisagoddess.livejournal.com]

Sure! Keep rubbing it in!

As if I didn't want to visit while you were there. Psh.

[plopfiles.livejournal.com]

Didn't we do something in spanish class in high school about olives? Man, that was a long time ago!

And about the parents thing- I think it's like a power thing- if you got pregnant and went home, your mom could control your life and your baby's life, AND she'd have grandkids.

Totally weird, but it's the only think I could think of...

Just live your life the way you want it, and don't think too much about your mom. *hug*

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

But she doesn't want me to get pregnant and go back home. So it still doesn't make any sense.

[plopfiles.livejournal.com]

Cause she holds you to a higher standard cause you're her daughter?

[holytoastr.livejournal.com]

So...she wants me to be perfect? That's not going to happen. She's going to be very disappointed the day she realizes I'm only human.